my thumb hurts so bad

(I was going to say Against Me! to be more accessible, but my gut told me trio,

i dont care what you say. deus ex is the best videogame ever made. it's kind of like listening to paul nolley or an early trio record.

today my drug of choice is

Peanut Butter and Jelly for Life

This week my drug of choice is productivity. So far it's provided me with the same highs and lows as any other psychotropic drug except i have something to show for my time spent in the end, even if it is bureaucratic nonsense. Right now i'm tripping balls on college applications, acquiring references, and a little non-nonsense of figuring out and putting together bday presents for a couple people who are dear to me. the best part is that i'll smoke a blunt after and still remember it all in the morning.

whoa,

i just got off work and ground up some pot to smoke. a pentagram drawn on the top of the grinder just rubbed off onto my hand and i feel like richard ramirez.

friendly philanthropy or unecessary materialism

so i bought this new computer two weeks ago and then got a check from my dad as a graduation gift. it so happened that i originally had just enough money to buy the computer i bought, but it was kind of a shitty laptop you'd buy for someone that only wants to surf the world wide web and maybe type a word doc or two. i felt rich for a week with the excess cash and thought about blowing it all on maker's shots for myself and my friends at bars for the next month, but today decided on an impulse to just buy a nicer computer. i returned the old one on the last possible day (according to my receipt) and spent an extra few hundred dollars on something i'm actually proud to call my computer.

the factor that fucked with me the most at the end was "Am i really willing to give up the 5 or 6 hours i've spent on icewind dale 2 in order to own a computer that is more than a word processor?"

I eventually went with yes, and as soon as i reinstalled the game, i regretted my decision.

but really, i'm happy to have another new computer.

whenever i start a new rpg, i play as a mage or assassin or rogue or something that sounds fun or interesting. then i die pretty quickly and start a new game as a warrior.

a tiresome process of rebuilding

so as i've probably compained to you about, my computer and external hd crashed within the same few days. i am left with a clean slate and a lot of my own blank stares. i am a spectrum of fairly to severely upset about the loss of pictures, writings, and music that i've taken, written, and sang, respectively.
speaking of, if anyone has any bridges burning or scalping project they would like to send to me, i would greatly appreciate it. maybe i'll just make a facebook post about it now and will probably get a much faster response.

however, the rest of the music i lost is not such a bother. in fact, the laborious task of reconstructing a music library based on what i enjoy now, rather than what i've enjoyed over the past eight years is kind of exciting. i think it will be a good thing to get the long musical loves back, but also start an almost entirely new library of music i enjoy here, today.

wish me luck.

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it's the next big thing. i swear.

COCAAAAAIIIIIIINE

this makes my heart hurt in multiple ways.