friendly philanthropy or unecessary materialism

so i bought this new computer two weeks ago and then got a check from my dad as a graduation gift. it so happened that i originally had just enough money to buy the computer i bought, but it was kind of a shitty laptop you'd buy for someone that only wants to surf the world wide web and maybe type a word doc or two. i felt rich for a week with the excess cash and thought about blowing it all on maker's shots for myself and my friends at bars for the next month, but today decided on an impulse to just buy a nicer computer. i returned the old one on the last possible day (according to my receipt) and spent an extra few hundred dollars on something i'm actually proud to call my computer.

the factor that fucked with me the most at the end was "Am i really willing to give up the 5 or 6 hours i've spent on icewind dale 2 in order to own a computer that is more than a word processor?"

I eventually went with yes, and as soon as i reinstalled the game, i regretted my decision.

but really, i'm happy to have another new computer.

whenever i start a new rpg, i play as a mage or assassin or rogue or something that sounds fun or interesting. then i die pretty quickly and start a new game as a warrior.

a tiresome process of rebuilding

so as i've probably compained to you about, my computer and external hd crashed within the same few days. i am left with a clean slate and a lot of my own blank stares. i am a spectrum of fairly to severely upset about the loss of pictures, writings, and music that i've taken, written, and sang, respectively.
speaking of, if anyone has any bridges burning or scalping project they would like to send to me, i would greatly appreciate it. maybe i'll just make a facebook post about it now and will probably get a much faster response.

however, the rest of the music i lost is not such a bother. in fact, the laborious task of reconstructing a music library based on what i enjoy now, rather than what i've enjoyed over the past eight years is kind of exciting. i think it will be a good thing to get the long musical loves back, but also start an almost entirely new library of music i enjoy here, today.

wish me luck.

Tell your friends

http://dadroulette.tumblr.com/

it's the next big thing. i swear.

COCAAAAAIIIIIIINE

this makes my heart hurt in multiple ways.

the music in my house is crazy right now

tripping kids with lots of drugs reminds me of older times, and being objectively on the outside of it all is kind of fun. they watched predator while listening to ridiculous noise music and now i think they're going to go see 2012 and sneak nitrous into the movie theater. complete and utter good spirited recklessness. it's kind of beautiful.

and it looks like our stoner metal band, skull, might actually happen.

rohan start a blog you fucking asshole.

humans makes jokes

tragedy and comedy are the same or something like that right?

i really don't like reynauds sometimes.

i am very cold.

i(t) feel(s) unhealthy.

i need a stuffed panda for moral support.

or a pocket that can fit all the warmth of a predatory creature eating helpless prey inside her heart sleeping next to me.

that is willing to let me warm up my hands sometimes.

as a graduate of college with an english degree i am very self-conscious about my comma placement always.

fuck you, and i hope my friends make out with some people tonight.

(this bridge) radiohead is still sweet

work went by quickly tonight, and i kind of enjoyed it.

then we cracked out the vaporizer and i remembered how much i enjoyed that wild thing.

and then we made a playlist full of the indie rock music we listened to in high school when we felt we felt like punk rock wasn't cool anymore. and then we listened to punk rock music we used to think was really cool.

i still think punk rock is really cool.

and i'm glad this playlist is going to be on until i fall asleep.